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[22 Mar 2004|10:23pm] |
yea well i dont remeber school i was only awake for 2 classes.. forensics and lab lol eveythitng else was SNOREEE lol well after i got outta school met up with jay and went to jers.. when we got there.. we slept for forever... jay and jer had some wierd conversations lol.. so yea jer pierced my second hole on my left ear.. that was fun fucking going in half way saying it was all the way in.. WTF!?!?! lol it was funny though..
jay was like passed outt cold.. he didnt wanna move for shit.. but yea thanks jer for the fucking hickey on my cheek =P its still really bad but i got shits load of cover up and foundaion lol i had to go to saphoria (sp?) and get help and the guy was really wierd saying that this is what i get for being to sexual.. ok one thing there was nothing sexual just random.. and then he was like did the guy outside do this to you wanna me to kick his ass? (meaning jay) im like no he didnt do it his friend did.. but he was a fucking ass... went to jays for about an hour and tried to fix it up even more.. worked.. its still there but its really dull... hopefully i have enough coverup for tomorrow... but yea my mom didnt notice my ear nor the massive amounts of cover up.. ehh whatever.. no im home bored outta my mind.. ehh whatever
ill talk you peoples later
NicoLe*
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1. What is your Full Name: Nicole anne sudol
2. What color pants are you wearing right now? uhh boxers blue forest green and black plaid
3. What are you listening to right now?smile empty soul- therapy
4. Favorite number: none
5. What was the last thing you ate?bread
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? black
7. Favorite scent? anything that smells good... maybe curve and axe pheinex(sp?)
8. Last person you talked to on the phone? Jer
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes
10. Do you like the person who sent you this? yes very much but i never see her no more =\
11. How are you today? shitty and tired
12. Favorite drink? dr pepper... cherry coke and mixed drinks lol
13. Favorite alcoholic drinks? bacardi 151, smirnoff ice, shirley temples, strawberry daquiris(sp?) and vodka
14. Favorite sport? lately volleyball, soccer boxing football and sometimes baseball and basketball
15. Hair color? black brown red
16. Eye color? brown/hazel sometimes a blue circle
17. Do you wear contacts? no but i want
18. Siblings, and their ages: none if you dont count like close friends
19. Favorite Foods? anything good
20. Celebrity you'd like to have lunch with? anyone worth while and i woud have fun with
21. Last movie you watched and with who? girl interrupted, jer and jay but jay was sleeping
22. Favorite day of the year? a day were im smiling with no tears in my eyes
23. Are you too shy to ask someone out? matters who and how much i like 'em
24. Summer or winter? fall
25. Hugs or Kisses? kisses but huggs are good for comfort
26. Describe the underwear your wearing right now. grey vicky secret
27. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla but chocolate brownie mix =]
28. Do you want your friends to write back? why not
29. Who is most likely to respond? no idear
30. Who is least likely to respond? no idear
31. Living arrangements? apartment in hills with my mommy
32. What books are you reading? in cold blood and the manson book.. im inbetween two other books but i stopped reading them it got to confusing
33. Silver or gold? silver
34. Favorite Board Game? uhh ouiji(sp?) and some other one but i dont remeber what it was
35. What are you doing tonight? nothing probably tv and phone
36. Got any pets? ->> a cat at my dads house
37. What inspires you most? poetry
38. Buttered, Plain, or Salted Popcorn? butter!!!!
39. Say one thing nice about the person who sent this to you: i love her even if we dont see each other anymore.. and she always made me laugh or smile
40. Favorite car? jeep wrangler or the eclipse
41. Favorite flower? dead roses or dark red roses
42. How many keys on your key ring? three
43. Can you juggle? hell no
44. Favorite day of the week? anyday that im smiling
45. Red or white wine? niether
46. What did you do for your last birthday? chilled at home with some of my close friends and just chilled
48. Lifetime goals? to be with someone i love and care about and to be happy
49. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the Morning? why am i awake? and why am i alive?
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my fucking day sucked soo much i only went out for a half hour.. and no one was out.. im so fucking bored and i dont know were anyone is.. i wanna fucking go out.. im now in such a bad mood.. my mom is being bitchy and im fucking agravated.. today was like the worse day in forever (not really) but i feel so alone and bored... yea whatever im going to go die now.. bye bye
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[20 Mar 2004|08:36pm] |
There's a part of you that is ready to head off in a new direction, for you see the potential and you know how you can make the most of it. But you're more likely to hold yourself back, especially if this involves love. At this time in your life, you are less interested in the quick fix. You want long term solutions and relationships that can stand the test of time. Move slowly and you'll be just fine.
o fucking lovely
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[20 Mar 2004|04:50pm] |
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i got my glasses back!!!!<3 i love 'em
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[20 Mar 2004|01:48am] |
You are a moon shadow. With the moon as your source
you are a being of great mystery. Constantly
drifting, you descend into darkness to conceal
your brokenness. You have come to believe that
you are the only one you can rely upon for
constancy and safety that you need. But those
who know how to see you find enchanting beauty
in your wistfulness and fragility. It is to
them that you should flee, for their arms are
an open haven where your true light can finally
thrive..(please rate my quiz cuz it took me for
freaking ever to create)
What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
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[08 Mar 2004|02:03am] |
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well yea this weekend was interesting.. ill update about that later..
i redid the whole site thingy... pretty or no? i got really bored.... blah...
well its 2 i hafta wake up soon so ill talk to you people later
Me*
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o wow i hate myself so much.. i really do... i dont need this bullshit im going to disappear... im not going to talk to like anyone.. so dont be suprised... i hate almost everything about this world and more so of myself.... im gonna play along in this puppet show called life.. but im going to live it my way with no one else helping.. im not going to promise myself or anyone anything anymore... im not going to put myself threw shit not needed... i hate the fact i fall into every single trap people put me in and i dont realize it till its too late... i seriously dont need it.. no one know what i feel now.. no one inderstand.. and dont you fucking say you do.. your not me.. you dont know what im thinking and if you ask i wont tell you.. i dont need this shit anymore... i cant keep living my life hating everything i do everything i say and i regret it.. i regret my hole life.. sometimes i seriously regret that i met my friends.. they are the ones that put me in this state of depression and hate.. im not saying all mmy friends are like that but most.. i feel that my my friends... which mean the world to me.. crash down to show me that i dont have anything true to myself.. shows me that i really do have nothing.. i have nothing going for me.. im not getting anywere.. im basically sitting here wasting myself not doing anything.. i seriously need to go away and like never come back.. sometimes it seems that i have nothing to look back on... nothing at all all i have is hate pain suffering and drama.. i dont want nor need that.. and every time i think of this i seem to get worse and worse and break down in tears so much more than i used to.. and i cant handle this... i seriously just want to leave not saying goodbye to anyone... i cannot find anyone to make me truly happy.. yea people make me smile... no one makes me happy.. i dont know anymore.. im crying hysterically and there is no one to talk to.. no one i could talk to to understand..cause im the only one that understand... i just hate the fact that i dont know what to do anymore.. i have all these "whys?" and "what ifs" and i cant deal with that anymore..
im gone
good-bye
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ergger im sickkyyy =\
well today school was a nightmare.. i felt like shit could barely talk..
i was completely out of it..
come to think about it i dont remeber anything from school....
left early i didnt go to math.. i cant stand that class and with me sick i would of wanted to kill myself... so i met up with jay and we went to jers for a bit then alina (sp?) came over and we all went to walgreens then mac... at mac like crazy people were there... and they were playing hackey kickball type thingy... i guess thats what you can call it lol.. then people ended up fighting and leaving...
i saw joel and parma!!! i havent seen 'em in foreverrr... ahh then everyone like disappeared and i actually got home before 7.. it was cold anyway.. i basically froze my ass off.. eh o well im already sick...
well life sucks so whatever.. im gonna go lay down or something
nite
SickLy Sick
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erg im sick... sore throat, stuffy nose, headache, stomach ache ::tears:: i feel like shit and im at my dads house.. hopefully ill be better tomorrow... The key word HOPEFULLY.. callmeee im bored lol
ill update later..
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To all our home slices, pot heads, and rock stars,
Join us as Midnight Matylda performs live at The Red Zone on Saturday March 6th, 2004. 9:30 pm and The Continental Sunday March 21st at 11pm off St. Marks Place in the city. Come for some beer, friends, music and whatever the night brings you.
We'll be tossing out some free t-shirts for those that are not afraid to be near the stage. The rest will have to pay for it. Demos are available on request and we also have full length CDs for sale as well.
In case you didn't know already, Matylda is a 4 piece melodic, modern rock n' pop band with a science fiction twist. They have been compared to the likes of British rock bands and The Cure.
You can listen for yourself at www.MidnightMatylda.com
The Red Zone is located at:
79-56 Metropolitan Ave. Middle Village, Queens Village, NY 11379-2931
ph- 718 -326 - 7496, $10 cover
take the G,V,R trains to Woodhaven BLVD
from queens center mall take the Q11 to metropolitan avenue and then the Q54 to Red Zone...the q29 from the mall also drops u off at Red Zone ( or a short walk from metropolitan and woodhaven through the cemetary, 6 minurtes)
( for a map visit our website or go to RedZoneRocks.com)
Details on our show at the Continental will be emailed 2 u ASAP .
We will meet you there !
qris-p, Cris, J.J. and Bruce P. Squirrel - Midnight Matylda
P.S. - after the show we might hang out at the cemetery.
Disclaimer: If u have received this email in error and would like 2 be removed, u may do so by coming 2 our upcoming shows w/ur friends and requesting in person.
FOR MATYLDA
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Name Four Bad Habits You Have:
- jumping to conclusions
- slacking off
- hiting, scratching, abusing people
- hating people
Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
- a life
- a car
- therapy
- happyness
Name Four Scents You Love:
- dead roses
- paint
- sharpies
- fresh clean sheets
Name Four People That Know You the Best:
- i dont know
- i dont know
- i dont know
- you?
Name Four Things You'd Never Wear:
- pink
- pink
- pink
- pink
Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
- death
- how i feel like shit
- i dont want to cry
- what should i do?
Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
- a manson book
- tarot cards
- soda
- food
Name Four Bands/Groups Most People Don't Know You Like:
- i dont know
- i dont know
- i dont know
- i dont know
Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
- dr pepper
- coke
- pepsi
- sprite
First Teacher's Name?
- dont remember
Last Song You Sang?
- nin "fuck you like an animal"
Last Person You Hugged?
- i dont know.. its either jer sean or my dad?
Last Thing You Laughed At?
- geting paint in my hair
Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It?
- i dont know..
Last Time You Cried?
- this morning
What's In Your CD Player?
- nin- a downward spiral
What Color Socks Are You Wearing?
- white tube socks
What's Under Your Bed?
- another bed
What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
- 800
Current Taste?
- dry
Current Clothes?
- flame pj pants and a white shirt
Current Longing?
- life
Current Worry?
- hate
Current Hate?
- people
Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex/Same Sex
- eyes smile
Last CD You Bought?
- haha im to cheap
Favorite Place To Be?
- anywere but here
If You Could Play An Instrument?
- bass, i started to learn but never really learned it
Favorite Color?
- i dont know red i think
Do You Believe In An Afterlife?
- yes
How Tall Are You?
- 5-6?
Favorite Season?
- fall
One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To:
- i dont know
Favorite Day?
- i dont know
Where Would You Like To Go?
- anywhere but here
What Is Your Career Going To Be Like?
- shitty
How Many Kids Do You Want?
- none.. i cant handle myself.. how would i take care of a kid
Favorite Car?
- jeep wrangler
Identify Some Of The Things Surrounding Your Computer:
- i have a laptop
Five details about you...
[x] im self concious (sp?)
[x] i feel hated
[x] im depressed
[x] i hate myself
[x] im very emotional
Five details about your appearance right now...
[x] dirty
[x] sick
[x] pjs
[x] smeared make-up
[x] paint on fdace/hands/arms
Five things you did today
[x] school
[x] sleep
[x] paint
[x] kiss
[x] cry
Five memorable things in the last year
[x] cut myself
[x] over absusive to people
[x] cried more than i have ever cried
[x] fought with so much more people than usual
[x] i dont know
Five favorite movies...
[x] practical magic
[x] finding nemo
[x] now and them
[x] nightmare before christmas
[x] american history x
Five things that make you happy...
[x] loud music
[x] jay
[x] jer
[x] sean
[x] knives
Five things that impress you...
[x] nothing
[x] nothing
[x] nothing
[x] nothing
[x] nothing
Five things you'll do when you complete this...
[x] cry
[x] talk on the phone
[x] sleep
[x] think
[x] wake up
Five things you feel right now...
[x] shitty
[x] sick
[x] headache
[x] pain
[x] sleepy
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1. Am I cute?
2. Am I crazy?
3. Am I lovable?
4. Am I funny?
5. Am I annoying?
6. Am I psycho?
7. Am I daring?
8. Am I a good person?
*Would You*
1. Hug Me?
2. Miss me if I was gone?
3. Listen to my problems?
4. Hug me if I cried?
5. Be a good friend?
6. Get in a fight for me?
7. Run evil social espionage missions for me?
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1. Would you Ever go out with me?
2. If you already have, would you do it again?
3. Kiss me?
4. Marry me if you could?
5. Ever talk bad about me if we ever broke up?
6. Make out with me in a cemetery?
7. Snuggle with me?
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1. How Well Do You Know Me?
2. When's my birthday?
5. Who is my best friend?
6. Who am I crushing on/dating?
7. Favorite color?
9. Favorite Animal?
12. Favorite song/songs?
13. Favorite music groups?
15. What song would you dedicate to me?
18. What would I use to dispatch a horde of hungry zombies?
If You Could*
1. Give me a new name, it would be?
2. Do one thing with me, it would be?
3. Drop me a piece of advice, it would be?
3. Kidnap me for a day, where would we go?
JUST A FEW QUESTIONS************************
1. What do you love about me?
2. What do you hate about me (seriously)?
3. What is my best quality?
4. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
5. What is your honest opinion about me?
6. What would you do if I sang out of tune?
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1. what song (if any) reminds you of me?
2. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?
4. Have you ever had a dream about me?
5. Do you think I'm a virgin?
6. If you just met me how old would you guess I am?
7. Am I huggable?
8. If you could give me anything... what would it be?
9. If you could promise me anything.. what would it be?
+ Personal +
1. Am I ugly, average, decent, good looking, beautiful, hot, etc?
2. Do you ever think about me offline?
3. If you could describe me in one word... what would that word be?
4. Do you/have you ever had a crush on me?
5. When we first met, what were your thoughts? (if you've met/talked to me?)
6. If you had to describe to someone who I am and what I am like, what would you tell them?
7. What are my faults?
8. My strengths?
+ Everybody +
1. Do you wish we were closer?
2. Why aren't we closer?
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1. What is your full name? Nicole
>2. What color pants are you wearing? jean
>3. What are you listening to? nothing
>4. What are the last four digits of your phone number? 1706
>5. What was the last thing you ate? steak
>6. What did you have for lunch today? mickey d's
>7. How is the weather right now? windy
>8. Last person you talked to on the phone? tal
>9. What is first thing you notice about the opposite sex? face: eyes
>10. Do you like the person who sent you this? found on a livejournal
>11. What was the most exciting thing you did today? play pool
>12. Favorite drink? wild cherry pepsi
>13. Favorite sports? uhh hackeysac? lol its not a sport
>14. Hair color? brownish blackish with red highlights
>15. Eye color? brown sometimes hazel
>16. Do you wear contacts? have glasses want contacts
>17. Siblings and their ages? noppers
>18. Favorite Month? september
>19. Favorite food? pizza
>20. Last Movie you watched? part of volcano
>21. Favorite day of the Year? i dont know
>22. Favorite relaxation spot? is a comfy bed
>23. Are you too shy to ask someone out? no
>24. First teenage (or Preteen) movie star crush? i dont know
>25. Winter or Summer? winter
>26. Hugs or Kisses? kisses
>27. Relationships or one night stands? relationships
>28. Chocolate or Vanilla? strawberry
>29. Do you want your friends to write back? dont care
>30. Who is most likely to respond? ? dont care
>31. Who is least likely to respond? ? dont care
>32. What books are you reading? i have to read lord of the flies and the last kashmiri rose
>33. What's on your Mouse Pad? dont have a mousepad i have a laptop
>34. Favorite Board Game? none
>35. What did you do last night? uh chill at my house, talked, teared
>36. Favorite smell? anything yummy
>37. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? nop
>38. What inspires you? =\
>39. Buttered, plain, or salted popcorn? buttered!!
>40. Favorite car? jeep wrangler
>41. Favorite flower? dead roses
>42. How many keys are on your key ring? 3
>43. Can you juggle? hah thats funny
>44. Favorite day of the Week? none
>45. Red or white wine? hate wine
>46. What did you do for your last birthday? chilled at my house
>47. Do you carry a donor card? nop
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last kiss: afternoon
last good cry: yesterday
last library book: haha library
last movie seen: theaters: Butterfly Effect
last book read: dont remeber
last cuss word uttered: fuck
last beverage drank: brisk baby
last food consumed: steak
last crush: =P
last phone call: tal
last tv show watched: the man show lol
last time showered: hah few days ago sorry im dirty
last shoes worn: vans with flames
last cd played: mix mainly 40 below summer
last item bought: a soda
last thing downloaded: dont remeber
last annoyance: my moms bitching
last disappointment: myself
last soda drank: wild cherry pepsi
last thing written: quotes
last key used: s
last word spoken: bye
last sleep: this morning (4 am)
last sexual fantasy: unno
last weird encounter: to manyy
last ice cream eaten: strawberry
last time wanting to die: when dont
last time hugged: 1030ish when jay left
last time scolded: everyfucking minute
last time resentful: =\
last chair sat in: my green chair
last lipstick used: chapstick
last bra worn: now
last shirt worn: my charlie brown shirt that says "i got a rock"
last time dancing: i think either 2 days ago or yesterday (with my mom)
last poster looked at: my korn poster
last show attended: downpore
damn im soo bored
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